I know

new session coming right away

i do need that momment like that right now . vacation please be my side and for you dearest money , please come to my parents pocket for the whole family to be happy . can you do that for us ? the refrigerator are totally empty , the thing that are still available is ice . when i ask my sister to spend some money to spend the word that she spoke is a big NO ! so now i'm sitting home boredly doing crap thing over and over again without eating nothing . gosh ! what an incredible life i'm having , so please pray for me to be the enter in happiness and happiness :)

sorry for not posting

the hand is making move for not being deligion

towards this days , i have no feeling to make a few sentence to show how am i right now . don't make your brain wondering about what's going own around my enviroment . it's been the same every single day , except for my weekend and that is only the exception . so you got what i'm saying , then please do make a move to not spend even a minute to visit the most boring web in history which i hate ! thank you for your effort and remember that i always appreciate it :D

the day the Times Square stood still

as you see there is a magnificent title that comes with a story right over here . a long time for me to make a post after this days , i really do apologizes for that . so now i tell you a story and i show some of the image that  are already happens .

the time that given for us to be all together at our front of school is before 730 . so , my ride to the destination is by my dear dayah parents's car and we got there together and waiting for our friend dear miss affea to be arrive . at the first place , i felt embarrassed because of my appearance compare to others . but i let it go as dayah comfort me . so then here comes affea and a few minutes  , comes the one big bus .

pictures in the bus :

affea with her bus partner , kak hanis

as i'm very excited to be sent to Times Square

and about an hour but not really , finally we got safely in one peace at the main entrance of the junction . so we choose kak eja and her friend kak yuni to be our guidance in every hour we been given from 10 till 5pm . we have to wait for a few minute to get in into the shopping mall and snap a few of this pictures .

infront of the main entrance of the big junction :

read the expression , than you'll know what they are trying to say

oww , love you dayah

the two wonderfull seniors together with us

when we finally got to be one of the people in the Times Square , toilet are the first place we visit , than we just waiting for all the store to be open by the workers . at the mean time , dayah , fea ,kak eja ,kak yuni and me are just servey all the clothes in every shop that are already opened . this pictures are taken along our day in the mall .

window shopping and else :

the most happening people i've known yesterday !

syakir and najwan are always be seen with us but not all the time

choose one please :)

we got mad by the owner of this shop :(

COSMO WORLD !

we didn't got the chance to watch movie after a few of us got reallt dizzy after trying the games at cosmo world . me and fea buy some things at nichi and dayah plus fea help me to search for my cap . after eating at the  KENNY ROGERS and a lot of silly things happen we walk towards the boling alley . pictures below explains us at the boling alley .

boling alley :

waiting for our lane

dayah is finishing the fries from McDonald

as i'm holding the money to pay 

guess where the ball goes

the team of guys

after playing just one game , it's time to go home and be in the bus before it moves . we are really damn tired ,

so we all sleeps in the bus silently . when the bus stop , everyone called their parents to get home . for me , i went home by dayah's car again :) 

celebration

for the one who is ISLAM , you may now this !

as you may heard that for my religion were already celebrating our special occation which is 'HARI RAYA AIDIL ADHA or HARI RAYA KORBAN ' . my family are not celebrating this event that much , but we're spending a lot of time at mom's kitchen for cooking , slicing , opening thing and others for all the cooking stuff to serve an eating machine . the place that become our choice to celebrate is our small couzy home . a few of my mom's siblings came to visit my home for the main reason to see the new look of my house after the renovation . if you be the guest for today's hour , your stomach will be full with different kind of meal and beverages so please be caution before you step in into this castle , *kidding . to end this lovely post is by saying ' selamat hari raye aidil adha but to send my appoligy for not start the culture of giving money in this raye :D

freedom comes

the school weekends have already ended about a few minute ago , the most suitable word is HOORAY !!

sentences that you just read up there explain everything about my post . there will be no more wearing school uniform in each of every day except saturday and sunday . my school session for my batch are suppose to be in evening session but our teachers decided to make it in  the morning . there will be a lot of things i'll miss and the thing i will never remember . friends will not the be the main people that we will see every day , but they will be on my memory everyday but not every sigle time okay ! i'll miss all my friendly , kind and plus everything on my senoir form two because in the next year we will not see then randomly . i'm sory for my mistakes to all my teachers and friend . may my soul be peace during this vacation of ours .

I just blew my parents biggest hope

my parents will be very dissapointed to see my final exam result .

both of my parents are giving high hope to me to be the best among the best in aducation stuff . but my final result just proving me that i'm not work enough to make their dreams becomes true . i'm a bad daughter , you may say that because you can use your brain to estimate that i am one . i'm saying the truth about i'm actually target on high marks for each of the exam papers , but not even once seems like it otherwise it become on the opposite direction on earth . i am now felt very sad of my result and my stupid nothing effort to be the best to beat the best . on this day , i have not much braveness to say words to my parents by speaking with them . i'm truly am sory my dear parents , i promise will tell you guys in the right time , in the right way . i'm sorry :( 

Thrilling and lovely wonderfull day with her

at last and thank you to god for making my dream come true to see my dear best ever duper friend :)

13 november 2010 , i finally get to see my dear lovely friend that i already be shown up here . isn't she a beuty by the looks but not only on the face also the in side part which are deep and look in deeper places in the heart area . i love her so fuckin much , i forget when the last time i saw her by our four eyes only . but today , our beloved god give us a chance toe see each other at a place of earth , aida's parents house .

love her so much , she's a genius student at MRSM kem terendak . i hope by the genius brain she got will not change an inch of her valuable character that makes everyone felt in love in different expect , what i mean is if you guys want to be close with her , will be the easiest thing to do on her because she's very talkative , kind , helpful and everything on something . so please do love me plus us  . heee . .

Choose anyone else instead of her please !

this stuff happen not once but triple multiples time okay !

every single man that i've been in love must and that's the main condition for him to love this a.k.a beutiful teenage friend of mine . why can the dude love other girls axcept this girl , please answer me ! you may know that this girl is gorgeous and beutiful , got everything perfect in the face area and everything . i'm not that impress but i do admit that she is damn gorgeous as the guys that have two eyes said . if i kinda like this guy , then after a few weeks later but not long , i'll get a notice that the guy love and very interested on her so much and takes me to long enough to know after the dude loves her . thanks for everything because my heart are not aloud to have feelings towards anyone and again thanks to you . i'm not mad to you my dear , if the person love you than there's nothing you can say about . but please give a chance to my selve to continue the feelings in a good way and end it with not totally happy but an okay ending ! i think i might need an apposite character , what i mean is a guy that i dreamed about to be my side like the figure above . can I ?

everything to change

a new year coming up and the change should be prepared

for my form one batch , we already having a full but not new textbooks for form two . for me and my selve , i felt the time past very fast and will keep it's speed forever fast . seriously the day that we have , had come to quickly for it to end with night time and goodbye . so , the motive is actually , i'm going to be in form two student body at the angles school =.=' . so if in this year i'm a bad student ,not study enough books or anything else , i gotta change for the new era of human races . i'm tiyed with girls drama confession and stuff that got nothing to do with good things okay . as i'm typing this , i promise my selve to be much better student , daughter , sister , friend and person in the next year of our senior year just for the evening session . hoping thing find the road to get thing right and the way i want to be . speak out if any of you have something to say and say it out loud , i would love to hear and see , so that i can make your live call misery because you just make a big mistake to control by judging it with the sound of your voise missy !

The same thing repeated again

give me life that i can survive on !

can i need something that weird but it completes' me for survive . i need something and someone new that keeps it selve there for me for this time . i felt drawn in my on life because i felt like there will be that thing over and over again . do things keep it like that or the human just fell it . something that makes us feel the life will never comes toward us , we the one who should search to find it somewhere hidden around us . the thing that different us from each other is the guds we have to do , to make , to have or what so ever something . my dear friend said that if we don't feel hard  , easy , freedom , adventure , LIFE ,don't you dare to make a sentences that came out from your mouth with two red lips that LIFE IS BEUTIFUL ! bullshit on you dear creature . call yoor selve un living creature if you done nothing and say the three word just by saying it , uNDerStoOd (typing error) ! :D

can I rewind things back

everything that in my future plan are going chaos !!

please can i rewind back the time to make all my stupid mistakes on my examination paper of school's final exam . the mark that i really expected are all going on the totally opposite direction . why thing turns this way and not letting me be happy by all my result which are all in fliying colours . i'm very frustated on my result , i can't see their face of my dear beloved parents went their saw my results board or something . they give me a very high hope and want their full dreams at me to be reality in this world  . please dear god , make me some room to get gred A for the paper that i didn't got yet . i really in a down down mood right now . please help me teachers , i really need my result to be not totally perfect but make it almost . i really need this thing to make it as a preasant to my parents for 2010 so please make me happy and make them happy . i do need it and i need it now !

Don't you ever dare to hurt

i love her so much , so please stop and leave her in peace

hey there idiots , what kind of brain that you're been given ha dude . are you insane by thinking a young but not so humble teenage girl involve in this stupid dupid crape . man , tell me how long does god gave you life ? if you're already called as an older human , please show us that in every inch of your selves that you have mercy and a thinking pogress that still working ! your brain got left in you mama's stomach and you're out without a normal perfect brain like ours . there i given a full perfect sentence for you . she's totally innocent and you just keep going to proceed your suicide mision of your old leader granpha right ? hate you people that have no bright side in your triple dark heart . i love my dear friend so trouple much man . please let her go and makes every single breathing human happy . PLEASE ! I'M BEGGING . let her soul stay longer in time . no mother that wanted to see their child dying before them . so please show us some humanity that should be in every people who been given live by our mighty god .

please give me adventure

i have no choice just to keep posting in a same day

oh , i'm so sick that the stuff that i keep doing is online and making shit in this laptop again and again and again . i have no life if this keep shuttering in my ear to keep doing the same thing when the light of sun came out and until the sun going down when we call it as night . boring is the only word that suit to describe the situasion that i've been stuck with . oh dear god , i tell you what , my family are now have no guds or money to take the whole family to have a nice vacation at somewhere that is sure been far far away from my dear lovely sweet home . please if any of you out there , been really nice to give me a full freedom from my bordness , please take action quickly coze my head will not forever stay in one peace . please i really mean what i just said . PLEASE ! I FELT REALLY DUPER SUPER DOUBLE BORING . please take me away to a place that will take my breath away . read and understand this message to all my dear friend at school which is located in this earth of mother nature :(  

wish me the best of luck

oh dear god , please show me some mercy !

hey you people , my final exam is already vanish from days in our twelve month means 1 year . although the mighty exam is over lying dead . the result which makes a duper big super problem that i've been thinking in my not so round head of mine . i hate to see my result in super bad like a home without a roof that will forever liking . i want my result in straight A's and got top 3 like my parents always want it but as i remember my parents want me to be in top 1 . weird stuff ! if there is top 1 the number that i will get is number 1 right . so let me guess , i have , must to score or here comes the doom . one more thing , i finally got to be a prefect next year , isn't it a blast or just not . so in my next year life will be a working pogress as a sample for the junior . so for all my future junior , please be nice or something going to explode or just something .

when is the time that i'm actually getting taller ?

please my dear beloved god , i am very grateful for who i am but please can i be taller ?

so , you see this tiny cute dinasaur up here which rawring for people to see it in a upper level . these case is actually making a statement that the thing want to get taller from days to days in the correct level for it self . HEY! wake up you guys ,i'm talking about me , goshh ! i really do want to get taller and ofcourse not like really duper taller , just having a height that nice for me .not that i'm not grateful by what i am but there is nothing wrong for a teenage girl to have needed and hope . i need a favor from your guys to pray for me , oups , i mean for all the creature that still needed this crap to keep going in their human body . thank you for everything who will and not pray for all to get taller. this post are saying a lot of junk and it's nothing actually :)

so last word from my dispecable mouth , for who the one that still breathing , please do take care , for who the one that almost dying , please do cross the light safely and make it fast and for the one who are dead , may your soul rest in peace .

breathing in a new web

a big change have been made and you here to be the witness

hello there, of all witneses out there that are lucky to see my new colour . as you can see , my blog had turn into colourful stuff and made a lot of changes . i hope by changing a few of the tool in this blog will be a good thing to do and take all of your heart to visit it from time to time . the reason is also , i felt very poor to the owner of two gorgeous eye that just seeing the same thing over and over again , whenever their spending time to view my blog . this post is actually to inform that i or in other word my friend have kindly to waste time just to make your aye in a good condition by looking at this web . a message for my dear friend , Qistina , i'm sorry if i changed everything that you have done . i'll hope there will be no feelings hurt . a big thank you to my dearest Dayah for putting effort to make this blog in this wonderful way .thank you for everything and for nothing.

so , for my followers , do ENJOY and have a nice hour :)

Do life need me ?

do i have the perfect and forever place in these whole wide world ?

 

sometimes , however i felt in deep and deeper feeling that i'm not worth it to be in this beutiful life of human races . from day to days , i felt if i'm not here what different would i make because i've seen that my family will have happiness as soon my soul dissapear and my dear friends have their life withuout me just fine. am i saying the right word ? why am i saying this if i'm not looking bye my own two round naked eyes . i always felt lonely , for this meantime , none seem to understand me well and completely . WHY ? i have so much time to use and waste in my long journey of life , but now when i'm 13 i seem to loose hope . i know and will always keep telling my self to live whenever your given time by god to breath . and i'm sending this message as i'm telling you to live your life and won't you ever miss it for a second . 

life is a juorney and the road that we chose is the journey we shall have !